William Busbee who served three tours in Iraq with the Army returned home at the beginning of the year. But shortly after, he was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. His case was so severe, Busbee committed suicide...with his family...just a few steps away.
"They should of helped him, he did what they wanted, why couldn't they do what he wanted. And that was to get help." Libby Busbee says.
US Army Specialist William Busbee constantly searched for help when he returned from his third tour in Iraq. His mother Libby, tells us he had a lot to deal with. "He said how do you expect someone to go over there and be a murderer, and then come back here and be normal, you can't." Libby says.
Locking up his guns before bed and even being woken up became a routine. "He would ask me, who are you. It's mom you're in Panama City. But he just stood there and gave me a stare, he looked scared." Libby says.
Aside from sustaining a traumatic brain injury, William suffered from post traumatic stress disorder. "I saw him one day sitting at his desk arranging his papers and he had this blank look on his face and he was holding his gun and kind of twirling it."
And this wouldn't be her last scare. "He texted me ‘I love you.' My daughter said he's fixin to kill himself, floor it mom, so I did." Libby added.
Libby got home to find her son parked in the driveway with a gun to his head. Something he tried to keep her away from. "The policeman told me that he called and have him cleaned up and gone before I got home, to make sure that I didn't see, but I did." She says.
But after being pulled away by police, all she could do was stare at what was bound to happen. "We screamed and screamed and screamed. The police wouldn't let me talk to him and if they would just let me look at him, he wouldn't have ever done it."
March 20th changed Libby's life forever. She spent the days ahead wondering, what she or others could have done differently? Libby says her son turned to the Delwood clinic and nearby bases for help, but to no avail.
"He felt so disconnected from the world and thrown away by the army." Libby says. And without a direct line to the military, Libby also felt helpless. "If the military had to ask me at 18 if he could join the military, I should be able to talk to them at 23."
Through her outreach, Libby hopes that other military, mothers, wives and families don't have to endure the same type of grief that stems from PTSD. While much is still unknown about PTSD and its symptoms, the Bay County Veteran's Center offers help to those struggling with this disease.